notes

this language fucking sucks (c++)

hhhhhhh i do not handle rejection well huh.

fuck i want to cry so much rn

hhhhhhh life is too difficult

just wannya date her :pleadingcatcollar:

how do i un-fall in love

doesn’t seem possible

aaaaaaaa fuckkkkkkkk i just wannya date her

hhhhhhhhhh

what do i do,,,,

fuckkkkkk thinking again and it hurts

just wannya hold hands but i can’t now ig…

literally brain pls understand that platonic relationships are ok (aaaaaaa but i like her too much,,,,,,,,,)

rosalina pls stop being in love challenge (impossible) (she is simply too kind for me to not like her)

i wish i had any friends to play this game with. :deadAnya:

the desire to be told what to do and then be called a good kitty,,,,,

laying in bed giggling :3

i’m such a kitty

(very vague) fuck i need that to happen again…..

me :3

(i'm not needy at all to date someone...)

if i just keep turning the music up the sad thoughts will eventually go away right

fuck i forgot i don't auto link because this is the worst markdown parser ever

but if i do <> around it then it auto links... amazing

https://music.apple.com/us/album/good-4-u/1560734944?i=1560735856

https://music.apple.com/us/album/good-4-u/1560734944?i=1560735856

what do these lyrics mean

does a post with no image work

i really need to write my own markdown library or something so i don’t spend like 5 minutes looking at the one i use just to discover it doesn’t support strikethrough

does everyone just want to toy with my emotions and then forget about me? seems like that’s what happens though.

although i’m also not completely opposed to the idea of leaving someone else in control of my emotions

rlly hoping i don’t wake up

i’m sorry

if i lay here long enough ill eventually die right

kinda thinking and just like. i think while i do get crushes pretty easily, it’s not that often that those crushes turn into me being all lovey >.< just makes this hurt more tbh

pretty sure no one wants to talk to me tbh

ig if i never talk to people i probably won’t fall in love… and then i can’t be hurt when the inevitable happens. because it never would because i wouldn’t talk to anyone.

mmm, probably would be easier to just. die. instead of dealing with these emotions.

gm it’s another day of suffering ig

i’m just. lonely. forever

noting ever goes right

god this all hurts so much >.< why does nothing ever work out for me…

wannya just cry so fucking much rn

i really am just. single. huh.

fuck i want to cry so much

i might be sick after asking that

is it time to go lay in bed and daydream about how cute she is yet

:pleadingcat:

i really like her tho >.<

ok the panic is returning

not fit to be head of a one-person household

omg, me

(jk i have a very good motivation to do chores and keep my place livable)

rosalina talk to your crush challenge (impossible).

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa >.< :pleadingcat:

so scared,,,,,,, would be nice to date her though >.< she's so cute and sweet and kind and aaaaaaaaaa >.<

just realized my calc 2 teacher is talking about the funny rule that my calc 1 exam called "L Hospital Rule" lmao

need hugs rn but have no one to give me hugs >.<

finally managed to eat some cucumber slices from my salad

wish i had someone here irl rn to just. hug.

is now a good reason to skip class because i might need to just. cry.

hhhhhhhh idk what to doooooo

like i just wannya date her :pleadingcat: but she probably doesn’t wannya date me im guessing…

why am i so gay…………………..