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i really need to write my own markdown library or something so i don’t spend like 5 minutes looking at the one i use just to discover it doesn’t support strikethrough

does everyone just want to toy with my emotions and then forget about me? seems like that’s what happens though.

although i’m also not completely opposed to the idea of leaving someone else in control of my emotions

rlly hoping i don’t wake up

i’m sorry

if i lay here long enough ill eventually die right

kinda thinking and just like. i think while i do get crushes pretty easily, it’s not that often that those crushes turn into me being all lovey >.< just makes this hurt more tbh

pretty sure no one wants to talk to me tbh

ig if i never talk to people i probably won’t fall in love… and then i can’t be hurt when the inevitable happens. because it never would because i wouldn’t talk to anyone.

mmm, probably would be easier to just. die. instead of dealing with these emotions.

gm it’s another day of suffering ig

i’m just. lonely. forever

noting ever goes right

god this all hurts so much >.< why does nothing ever work out for me…

wannya just cry so fucking much rn

i really am just. single. huh.

fuck i want to cry so much

i might be sick after asking that

is it time to go lay in bed and daydream about how cute she is yet

:pleadingcat:

i really like her tho >.<

ok the panic is returning

not fit to be head of a one-person household

omg, me

(jk i have a very good motivation to do chores and keep my place livable)

rosalina talk to your crush challenge (impossible).

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa >.< :pleadingcat:

so scared,,,,,,, would be nice to date her though >.< she's so cute and sweet and kind and aaaaaaaaaa >.<

just realized my calc 2 teacher is talking about the funny rule that my calc 1 exam called "L Hospital Rule" lmao

need hugs rn but have no one to give me hugs >.<

finally managed to eat some cucumber slices from my salad

wish i had someone here irl rn to just. hug.

is now a good reason to skip class because i might need to just. cry.

hhhhhhhh idk what to doooooo

like i just wannya date her :pleadingcat: but she probably doesn’t wannya date me im guessing…

why am i so gay…………………..

this song isn’t even two minutes

too short :(

aaaa just keep thinking about her…….

it would be rlly nice to like. date…….

my chest hurts slightly.

too much panicking.

wait there's a new alec benjamin song that's been out for a few months???

apple music where was the notification???????

FUCKING BREATHE ROSALINA

literally just like. stop panicking (impossible)

if i just keep turning up the music then it's easier to pretend i dont see the notifications right

"fuck /pos" and "fuck /neg"

can fuck also be an emotion

need status posts that are just like. emotions. and then it'd just be panic panic panic panic panic panic panic panic panic

in a state of panic rn

so happy i have my apple watch now so i can see my heart rate rn lol

girl that literally says "hiiii" out loud when she types it

i think my brain is enjoying these sounds maybe

(really vague but i dont care) god the idea that this lyric is about him is so fucking funny

thinking about this stuff is so weird. never thought i'd be comfy with [that] after her. but maybe i am open to the idea slightly. possibly.

so scared that she probably doesn't like me

mmmm how is she so cute............

fuck i just realized i don’t get to see her again until monday :(((

mmmmm saige is in love…