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i might be slightly gay. possibly. just a little bit. like just slightly a faggot perhaps.

aaaaa think i’m in love…

think i feel a lot calmer now after getting to talk about when “soon” is

still worried it’ll go terribly though >.<

god i wish i had my apple watch rn, i need to see my heart rate

pro tip don't think too much or else you like worry and then more worry because you're worrying and then even more worry and more worrying and worry and worry and worrying and aaa

have to always ruin everything

hhhhhhhh

why am i like this

i don’t know when soon is but i don’t want to ask >.<

panicking rn

aaa scared >.<

every time i have to touch this database, i hate myself even more for how terrible the rust layer is written (strings get wrapped with quotes because something something rust types and i just, convert to json and back to deal with it)

girl that quietly goes "hiii" when she's being stared at

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa keep thinking about yesterday and, :3

hhhhh feel like she probably hates me after all this

miss her :(

everything hurts so much

maybe that’s what i’ll do today

kinda wannya add private posts here through indieauth.

just realized she called me silly hehe

very weird dream >.<

kagi.com "how do i know if a girl likes me"

meow hi :3

feel so terrible rn. might be sick

there's no way she likes me right?? it's definitely just platonic. friendly. :3

like, no one could ever actually like me rightttttt

there’s no way she likes me though right

melting,,,,,,,,

omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

blushing so much

i have a crush :3

rosalina has a crush :3

:3

mmmm keep thinking about that and just

need that again………….

meow

mmm my brain can not handle seeing a cute girl,,,,,,,

actually how is she so cute??

rosalina think about something other than kissing for more than 5 minutes challenge (impossible)

need to hold a girl’s hand,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

the neurotypical cishets don’t know what they’re missing out on

god i hate having crushes

just makes me all nervous and scared and aaaa

literally can't focus on anything rn cause im just constantly terrified

rosalina try not to have a crush on like everyone challenge >.< (fuckkkkkkkk why do i kinda have a crush on her maybe.......... >.<)

hate myself

why do i even try to have friends

want to cry so much

why do i just suck at literally everything

really feel like maybe i should just kms at this point.

i hate fedi.

mrow??

website where for each http request, it makes a request to openai to generate the html (slightly different page every time :3)

first this restaurant was playing paramore and now weezer omg

i love it here

am i actually about to cry just from playing captain toad: treasure tracker

captain toad: treasure tracker 2 pls nintendo 🥺

genuinely so tempted to just. block everyone on discord. or something. idk. just want to die.

wonder if any of them even noticed i left the group like a week ago lol.

they're probably celebrating tbh

to everyone i talk to, i'm just an annoyance.

feel so forgotten about.