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knowing that she reads my website sometimes makes me happy tbh :3 (hi nea :3)

god i hate myself so much right now

why am i never good enough? why does nothing ever fucking work out for me?

hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself hate myself

why couldn’t i just be smart enough

i hate myself :(

hate this brain :((

been hugging my girlfriend's plushie so much tonight, seems to be the only way i can calm down right now...

maybe i should drop out

too much sadness now

i think it would be very cool if at&t just gave me a /48 or something pls

i fucking hate at&t for only giving me a /60 ipv6 thingy. it's so annoying to work with in unifi :(

really want to setup a pds (idk if i'd do it on my pi or my server at my parents'...) and throw like an alt on it. just scared to do it on my main because afaik you can't migrate back to a bluesky-hosted pds and i'd probably fuck it up...

maybe i'd use like @puppygirlin.space or @puppygirl.ink

good night, it is eepy saige time i think

it should be possible for me to just have like 5 different names and everyone use them tbh that’d be so cute

4 hours of sleep is not enough for this puppy i think

i'm so eepy...

ideas are coming together :3

really hope she gives me a hug tbh >.< all i can think about right now :(

guess today is going to be one of those that i just don’t stop spiraling

feel close to being sick almost >.< just so much trauma coming back now

i’ve started wearing my airpods a lot at times that i previously wouldn’t have. like when running errands or walking alone. having a bit of background music is just rlly nice tbh

trying to figure out what to get my girlfriend for christmas without just asking her what she wants for christmas

i think i have some ok ideas so far

i should work on funny roblox game idea maybe

it’d be so cool if i had actually interesting things to post here. but i don’t.

instead, i just post gay thoughts.

totally not going down the “omg that name would be so cute” and then going through 20 different names pipeline… again…

alexis would be a cute name tbh

saige try not to get sad when her girlfriend doesn't reply to "ily" challenge (i know she does, and i also know she gets easily distracted sometimes and doesn't have discord notifications on. but my brain is still dumb and panics >.<)

i wish i could be good at splatoon :(

snipewriter 5h is the best charger ever. other than maybe z+f splat charger or e-liter 4k or z+f splatterscope.

have the air conditioning on so my apartment is cold and i can wear her jacket :3

somehow people are finding me through microsoft teams and i dont understand how? i dont remember ever linking it on a microsoft profile thing, and im pretty sure i've never (directly) associated it with my uni stuff? if you know i go by rosalina saige i guess you can find it... still confusing >.<

feeling happy right now ^^

wearing my girlfriend's jacket ^^

i really don't deserve a girlfriend as amazing as her tbh...

like, she's so smart and amazing and aaaaa :pleadingcat:

and im kinda like. not. :(

october is over in a couple hours. might just, not bother with finishing mathober i guess. am like two weeks behind on it anyways and i'm busy (i got an idea that i need to try in javafx)

extending this song to last an hour because it's rlly good https://m.nintendo.com/shared/en-US/US/tracks/eda5c3cd-559b-4ac9-b656-2f99138c2017

her other jacket is very cozy too tbh,,, not as soft though i think. also am freezing to death just sitting inside right now >.<

have a different jacket from her now 🥺

i hate myself so much sometimes

everything just reminds me of how i should’ve tried harder. could’ve been in honors maybe if i bothered to do the extra work to apply

just remembered a really weird dream i had last night. think it was about this jacket?? lol

still sad that ibm has like, basically killed weather underground :(

just remembered i literally told my girlfriend my social security number lmao

apparently siri will pronounce bluesky as "blue skeee"

i'm so happy there's the nintendo music app now...

might actually fucking cry 😭

need a hug maybe >.< don’t feel good for some reason,,,,,,

they should like, make eyelids better at blocking light. like, how am i supposed to sleep in class when i can still see the light :(

aaaaa i just wannya wear this jacket all day tbh

her jacket is so fucking cozy and soft and it feels so nice and i almost want to cry a bit now >.< (idk why)

i am so eepy

think 10:30am classes are too early. next semester i need to do like 3pm at the earliest

i have this jank as fuck proxy running on my raspberry pi to proxy requests to m.uits.iu.edu, and i have a self signed certificate installed on my phone lol

it’s great though, i log every request the app makes and change some of them for funnies :3

wearing her jacket right now and i do not want to take this off ever 😭

it’s so fucking soft and comfy and omg i’m wearing her jacket,,,

just found a ubiquiti forum post i made when i was 12 lmaoooo

hhhhhhhhhh