fuckkk i was trying to find a message from my girlfriend and of course there's some from my ex where she's like. accusing me of lying and how she must be right and just. god it hurts so much still... 2024-12-15 23:16:45
everyday i wake up and wonder why the FUCK a networking company makes a fucking video editing app and a photo editing app. and then i remember what they took from us. frontrow. and i am sad. 2024-12-15 05:25:20
glad im getting a slightly better paying job now with more hours. maybe i'll be able to save enough this semester for us to do a trip this summer :3 (very wishful thinking but i think it could happen...) 2024-12-15 02:29:06
tbh i might cry rn just cause im thinking about like. how is my girlfriend so kind and sweet and gentle and aaaa :pleadingcat: i love her so fucking much :pleadingcat: i have no idea what i'd do without her... 2024-12-14 03:03:50
hhhh if i did that she wouldnāt have to deal with me anymore. iād be lonely forever. but sheād be happier. and she wouldnāt have to deal with me anymore. 2024-12-13 22:38:40
can i just like. sleep forever. everyone forget about me⦠seems to already happen so 2024-12-13 22:20:24
terrible terrible terrible stupid stupid stupid awful terrible fucking terrible person 2024-12-13 21:49:34
i can't self isolate i can't self isolate i can't self isolate i can't self isolate i can't self isolate i can't self isolate i can't self isolate i can't self isolate i can't self isolate 2024-12-13 06:44:59
been sitting here for like an hour with my hrt just sitting on my desk because i don't have enough water in my glass and so i've just been waiting for the ice in it to melt 2024-12-13 06:21:42
hhh i always get my hopes up too much. and i didnāt even think i was being that hopeful. but it still hurts. 2024-12-12 20:23:16
sometimes i'll have little conversations with my girlfriend's squishmallows she gives me even though they are boring and won't respond to me smh (most of the conversations are just me going "nea,,, :pleadingcat:" tbh) 2024-12-12 07:00:00
thinking about how much i love nea now and like i might cry she's so fucking sweet š 2024-12-11 21:01:09
mmm just laying in my bed rn thinking about my nea. and how fucking comfy itād be to just. fall asleep next to her right now⦠hope she can spend the night more next semester or for christmas maybe. just, would be so fucking nice aaa :pleadingcat: god i love her so much⦠2024-12-11 07:43:04
the āthing associated with terrible personā to āreassociating that thing with neaā pipeline :pleadingcat: 2024-12-11 05:06:49
at work rn and nea came to see me to say goodbye before she goes home, aaaaa i love her so fucking much :pleadingcat: how is she so sweet... 2024-12-11 01:21:48
why is her solution to battery being in pocket but wanting to leave phone at table, to unplug it and leave the cable dangling from her pocket, instead of just taking the battery out of her pocket⦠2024-12-10 17:15:02
i kinda have a guess of where sheās taking me. itās probably incorrect though which tbh iām ok with. maybe she has somewhere more exciting in mind but idk where. and when i asked if it was spaghetti she said no. 2024-12-10 07:02:00
what if i just. emailed jazwares support to try and identify this squishmallow. would be very silly. idk. 2024-12-10 05:59:53
learning there's a squishmallow with my deadname is not what i needed to make this day even worse 2024-12-10 05:50:35
huh my brain is thinking again about the thing that i've only talked to like two people about ever and i really hate that because like there is a reason i have only ever talked to like two people about it ever brain please stop š 2024-12-10 05:10:33
i need more webcage tbh sometimes i get distracted and my playlist reaches the not-webcage part and i am slightly annoyed 2024-12-10 04:11:14
letting my girlfriend choose my middle name except she hasnāt figured out one still so iām just middle name-less 2024-12-10 02:52:25
it's so nice having gigabit internet tbh. like, at my parents' it's 100/100 which i was always fine with. but it feels so nice to just, look and see oh im pulling like 950Mb/s down from docker hub lol 2024-12-09 06:29:37
i feel like i have done good the past couple of days :3 havenāt really been lonely and i havenāt been missing my girlfriend or being needy for her that much :3 2024-12-08 03:28:39
i love my sweetheart she's so sweet and amazing and i love her so fucking much just don't understand how it's possible for a girl to be so amazing, like, aaaaaa :pleadingcat: 2024-12-07 07:30:46
about to cry (from happiness) just thinking about getting to live with my girlfriend some day... would be so cute... 2024-12-04 06:09:29