notes

webcage is so good,,,,

just realized my girlfriend can post to my bluesky account now lol

i miss my girlfriend,,,,,,

i have her plushie though hehe

it's so weird having just a reverse chronological timeline to browse tbh. idk...

also weird having to come back to my website to post anything but that is the indieweb spirit or something (i could do pesos but takes effort, bleh)

just realized i didn't have the heat on and so i've just been freezing to death

ugh ok maybe this weekend i will redo how my website works so not every post syndicated to bluesky includes a url

but i am so eepy rn

god my girlfriend has such good music tastes... or at least what she sends me/makes me listen to is really good

huh i am like a week behind on mathober posting huh... oops

hi posting this on my website to check if it'll get syndicated to bluesky through bridgy (pls pls pls work)

she stole my jacket from me (i stole it from her first and was wearing it cause it made me feel comfy and safe)

i miss hugging her jacket tbh

have this stuck in my head now https://music.apple.com/us/album/tensionnn/1732112388?i=1732112389

not complaining though :3

wtf

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just like. idk. this night is like. idk. can’t find the words rn

feel kinda terrible rn tbh but i shouldn’t :deadAnya:

gay (i am bored)

her jacket smells nice.......

omg i get to hug her jacket because she forgot it.....

this stupid armrest should stop existing (it is in my way and makes it uncomfy)

blushing so much rn hehe

blehhhhhh i dont wannya learn about java rn i wannya listen to the funny song that is stuck in my head for some reason (specifically the same like 10 seconds because it's sampling a song i rlly like...... or i could listen to the actual song thats being sampled....... idk i just wannya listen to music rn tbh)

discord users will literally pay for nitro just to make their profile completely unreadable (i love white text on white background)

painting my nails fucking sucks (it gives me too much time to think)

god i had been doing so fucking good for a while and then today i have just been the most emotional mess ever lol

my brain is very good at setting myself up for the maximum amount of pain if worst case scenarios happen huh

somehow forgot my apartment complex is doing fucking radon testing because of course

tbh it kinda makes me sad a bit to think about like, i have her in my discord bio and stuff. but i'm not in hers. but idk, it's whatever... probably shouldn't be sad about that but i kinda am >.<

hhhhhh god i am such a mess

well now i just want to cry

mmmmm she is just the cutest girl ever and i don’t understand how…………………

i am so gay……

cincinnati children’s is trying to make my life terrible rn huh

i love fucking with internal apis and proxying them through my own server to fix my annoyances with this app (it showed the room incorrectly because the api data was wrong)

aaa i love her so fucking much.......

i love being her puppy………..

the tower dining experience is there not being a single clean fork in the entire place

wait what did she mean i’m relatively normal??

her music tastes are SO FUCKING GOOD OMG

hhhh, that was a nice day. i hope we get to do something like that again someday...

i love her so much...

can't wait to spend the day with her tomorrow :3

melting thinking about my girlfriend,,,

hm i have 3 days worth of mathober to post now oopsie

i miss nea so fucking much already :(

aaaaaa i already miss her :(((

i do not know what my brain is doing

why didn’t i try harder? why didn’t i apply to honors? why didn’t i just bother to submit it despite not having any academic work because my high school fucking sucked?

spiraling again

kinda just want to like. cry a bit. hhh

reminded again that i’m just an idiot.

confusion,,,