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freezing to death rn

kinda want to just, go home. and lay in bed. and cry. and not wake up. idk.

kinda just feel like, crushed rn tbh.

want to cry rn tbh

:(

i love hugging her plushie so much :3

wish i had her jacket though :(

what is wrong with me rn? so confused. all i can think about is i was spiraling. but i don’t know why i started spiraling at all? like, wtf? and why won’t my brain stop thinking now about the fact i was spiraling? am i spiraling about spiraling? make it stop :((((((((((

playing hide and seek with my girlfriend right now but her hiding spot is literally anywhere on campus and i have no ideas

saige don't go down a fucking wikipedia rabbit hole during a quiz challenge

these pizza slices looked so much better under the heat lamp 😭

god words are so fucking scary

brain is already fucking up this conversation so badly (i cannot find the words at all... like they're in my brain,,,, but fingers won't type them.......)

aaaaaa i love her so fucking much,,,,

think i have an idea of what i could get her for her birthday hehe :3

i took a nap, was kinda nice. i hugged her plushie the entire time hehe

i’m so eepy

miss my sweetheart,,,,,

feeling of defeat rn tbh

i just miss her so much,,,

omg i know the song they’re playing in this panera cause nea played it last saturday lol

ugh i have to drive home

im so sleepy though

meowwwwwwwww

so eepy and worried about my girlfriend :(

also i should get out of bed probably so i can like. drive to my appointment,,,,

splatoon 3 sleepy sounds are so comfy

sadly it doesn’t make the worry go away :(

god i’m so fucking scared rn and i really don’t think i should be logically. just love her so much…

trying to stay calm rn but i cannot

eek i’m really fucking scared rn >.<

thought my ex ruined hyperpop for me but nope this is fucking amazing (or whatever my wife sends me is)

god i love webcage so much...

hhhh i should really work on the nxapi splashcat uploader but then i have to touch nxapi code but there's like electron and lots of files and it confuses me and there's like a whole structure but i don't know what the magic structure is and i dont wannya figure it outttttt

still can't believe i get to be her little puppygirl :pleadingcat:

i love her so much aaaaa >.<

forgot roblox studio ui is starting to look modern now omg

would anyone like to buy me a nas and 7 hard drives pretty pls :pleadingcat: https://store.ui.com/us/en/category/all-new-integrations/products/unas-pro

huh deno is on bluesky apparently? sad it's not web scale :(

not enough time in the world to do software dev (i say knowing i spend like a lot of time sitting there and doing nothing)

part of me really wants to do some roblox dev rn. cause i haven’t touched studio or anything in so long.

and then i remember i need to have an idea to make :(

sometimes i think about those late nights of us sitting in hine hall working on jagline++ during bridge week and like, those were really nice tbh. was fun building something together, even if not many people use it

wtf wtf wtf i got a job offer??????

saige leave in time for therapy challenge

just realized she called me sweetie earlier aaaaaaaaaaaaa

god i love her so fucking much >.<

god i really want to get a bunch of raspberry pis rn

hm where could i fit a server rack in my apartment...

kinda wannya post my swarm checkins here but idk

https://music.apple.com/us/album/0m61ly5m/1554408228?i=1554408229

only thing i love more than sqlite is my girlfriend. and maybe splatoon.

brain is back to how i was when i used fedi (i want followers lol)

her plushie is so cute… love hugging it :pleadingcat: makes me feel safe….

god she’s so fucking cute aaaaaaaaa :pleadingcat:

second night in a row of making spaghetti

tbh tomorrow night might be the same 😭

testing how tags are syndicated to bluesky #test1

what if splashcat integration with atproto (i have no idea how this would work)

noooo my ex is on bluesky :((( (the bad one)

still want to learn kubernetes for my funny pis, but the one pi is already running coolify 😭

@aagaming.me pls teach me sometime (i could read docs myself but that takes effort...)

the desire to have a server rack in my apartment...

hhhhh usually would get to see my girlfriend tomorrow but fall break ruins that :(